It's 3am and I'm wide awake!
While this isn't unusual, it's almost unheard of that I actually get up and make anything of my wakefulness at strange hours of the night.
But my alertness has persisted and my desire to act on my mental inspiration has been too strong to ignore. Maybe its the full moon energy.
Or maybe its all the ideas I've been working on recently (new yoga classes and retreats) that are just itching to become manifest. I've had a very productive few hours just now!
And then, my focus started to wander and I found myself reading a beautiful poem which stopped me in my tracks.
They were the words of Charlie Chaplin... supposedly written on his 70th birthday.
And I just had to share them with you.
A poem by Charlie Chaplin, "As I began to love myself"
As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.
As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.
As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.
As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm. Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.
As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.
As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.
As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.
As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.
As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.
We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing, new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS “LIFE”!
There's so much I could say about this gorgeous little poem.
I resonate with each of the paragraphs and his words on learning to trust the timing of life, learning to live simply and gently, learning to tame the mind.
And of course, learning to love oneself unconditionally.
Self-love is about self-acceptance. It's as simple and as hard as that.
Having the ability to accept what comes in life is the essence of yoga.
In this moment, for instance, I've had to bring acceptance to an inability to sleep!
But I remember a time when it would completely do my head in! I'd end up working myself into such a state about it...but of course, that only makes it even harder to sleep!...something that anyone who's experienced this will know.
In fact, resisting ANYTHING in life only makes it worse.
What you resist persists as the saying goes.
The opposite of resistance is acceptance. When we accept things as they are we discover a state of inner calm, even if what is occurring outside of us is anything but that!
So as the sunrises outside my window this morning, and the full moon fades away, I feel a sense of deep gratitude for this opportunity to share my midnight musings with you and for the discovery of these beautiful words.
May this poem touch you as it did me. May it inspire you to live this day confidently, humbly and from the wisdom of your heart.
May it inspire you to love yourself fully and fiercely knowing that only goodness can come from doing so.
Love Kate xox